Sweat Dreams

Ever wake up from a dream soaked in sweat? What's that all about?

That happened to me the other night. I was having a really intense dream about a friend of mine who had found me a job. But it was some awful job and I didn't want to do it. I'm not even sure I was qualified to do it. I remember her being excited for me but at the same time she didn't want me to let her down, as if she'd pulled some strings to get the job for me. I remember her grabbing me by the shoulders and shuffling me off to some room and saying something like "Show time! Go, go GO!" And then I woke up in a sweat, all fearful and apprehensive. (Do those words mean the same thing? Hmmmm)

Of course I have been out of work for some time now and I have a group of lovely people around me throwing jobs leads my way any time they can. And now more than ever my fear of never, ever having a job again for the rest of my life is (at times) my number one fear, almost to the point of phobia. Almost as bad as my very real dissatisfaction over my situation is my fear that I will get a job and it will only make my life worse. 

Lesson: Maybe you can spend the whole day telling yourself not to sweat the small stuff but once you are asleep, your subconscious takes over and all bets are off.